What's NEXT?

Maybe you don't, maybe you do, but I hate living my life in neutral.  Forces of nature are pushing this way and that, we act occasionally but mostly we react.  We rearrange, reiterate, readjust.  Remember.  Occasionally we run into someone with whom we had something in common - oh, years and years ago - and we marvel how far and how fast they have come into their own.  Like somehow they are more real than you because they are seemingly more successful or more famous.  We wonder why now we are so far apart on the spectrum of opinion and lifestyle, when we seemed to be so alike as young ones.  Now as grown-ups, life doesn't taste as sweet unless we create it ourselves.  We have to make choices, find time between reactions to make the next move, carve the next groove.  In a moment, a split second, we work our wills for better or worse, we make our mistakes, we loose everything and gain more than we ever thought possible.  Such drama.  "BE HERE NOW" and but most people can't.  The next thing is already forcing them on to the next breath.  They can't just stay in the moment.  Most people can't live like that.  So we marvel at the people who can't stay inside the lines.  Good for them.