Unconditional

My breath is caught and my chest rises.  My back tenses and my arms ask permission
to push away to catch my fall.  I'm still breathing, it's only a moment in a time, a small catch in the hem
and I go about my day as if all were as it should be.

My vision is blurred and I shy from the decisions I know I am alone to make.  I slip deep into the midnight shadow and close the door behind me.  In the dark, I find a liar's solace.  There I account my deeds, my needs, my view upon the world.  I struggle to remain still, I ask my soul to forgive.

All this just to utter the words, just to allow myself to be.  And so the saying goes, do what's important not what's easy, especially when no one is looking.  I will venture down the path laid before me, I will measure my steps.  All this just to love you, just to know that I am loved.